// Handstand holds//
They make me feel badass…even if I have to do them up against a wall…can’t wait until I’m strong enough to add the pushup in
// My tummy hurts//
But I need to work out because I have clinicals 630-300 and work 300-1130 and at work all I’ll be doing absolutely nothing but sitting on my ass =(
// Running…//
was actually kind of nice. Except for the fact my legs were screaming through most of it. I feel like I never fully recover from anything since I workout pretty much everyday. I’m actually pretty impressed with my endurance now. 2.30 miles really didn’t seem that hard. Unfortunately I have a 5 miler coming up her pretty soon and I feel like my dad is not going to be impressed with my limited abilities (I’ll be super impressed if I make it anything over 3 miles without stopping…he on the otherhand will probably not be pleased with how slow i’ll be running since we are supposed to be running together)
// Stomach why you no get flatter??//
I’m really trying to be more accepting of my stomach the way it is but next to my indented hips and love handles its one of my least favorite body parts. No matter how much weight I’ve lost it is always there. I just feel like it doesn’t look proportional to my body. My ribcage is huge and I don’t have much fat around it so you can see my ribs but right below that I have kwashikor belly…i feel like I look like I’m pregnant. It’s not even distributed evenly around my stomach its like it sits right in the middle which I think emphasizes it even more
Odd thing is my boyfriend loves my stomach. Don’t ask me why but he asked me to please not work out so hard that I lose it. He actually thinks I don’t need to work out at all because I’m thin. But even if I am thin I’m skinny fat and that is not very attractive either. Does anyone else have a body part they dislike but their significant other loves?
On a final note I know a lot of my posts seem negative but I have seen some progress in my body that I am proud of. My legs (while not as muscular as I would like yet) are pretty much rock solid and strong and I’m starting to get back muscles!! BACK MUSCLES!!! I was so happy I almost ripped off my shirt to show my trainer but he probably would have laughed at me and my mom would have probably died and then made fun of me.
// Just can’t do it…//
I only have less than a mile more to run but the thought of spending one more minute on that treadmill is agonizing…I think I’m gonna go put some warm clothes on and finish up outside
// Faceballs…//
Okay technically they are called wallballs but 9 times out of 10 i catch the ball with my face so hence the nickname…150 of those suckers today…seriously my coaches are sadistic
// I’m a lil disappointed //
I’ve been working really hard this past week to really kick ass at my goals! I’ve been wearing my armband faithfully, remembering to take my supplements for my cleanse, tracking every thing I eat, trying to reach a certain burn target everyday (which usually means I have to burn 500 calories through exercise crossfit/running/hitt), and achieving a calorie deficit of around 500 a day (I measure and track everything I eat supplements included so this should be accurate) and this morning I step on the scale and I’ve gained a pound!! How can I gain weight (muscle or fat) if I’m eating at a deficit?? I am no where near starving myself as I usually hit 1700-1800 calories a day and all from clean food. I shouldn’t be retaining water because I’m not eating overly processed foods and I stay well hydrated. I’m just a Lil disappointed because I still have unattractive fat on my body I don’t mind if I gain weight due to muscle but eating at a deficit that shouldn’t happen. Does anyone have an input on this?
Most of you probably dont know this but I work in an emergency room with my mom. Yesterday everyone kept asking me if I felt all right (apparently I’m yellow) I chalked it up to the 2 servings of baby carrots I eat a day because I did the same thing with sweet potatoes 6 months ago. Apparently no one believed me, my mom pulled me aside and asked me if I had been throwing up. I told her no that I felt fine and then it dawned on me she was asking me if I was bulimic! I promised her that I don’t but it bothers me that people think I am. I’m spending all this time trying to get in shape and people think I’m bulimic.
Monday I didn’t quite reach my burn goal =( but I still maintained a calorie deficit…I’m really not sure if I’m eating to much or to little i set up my target to be a 250 deficit as I thought setting it to lose a pound a week might hinder my strength progression but I usually hit around 400 guess I’ll just see what happens
I've struggled with body image issues for a long long long long time. I created this tumblr in the hopes that I could surround myself and share my success with people who are happy healthy and positive!! HW: 140 CW: 125 UGW: I don't have one instead I have an ultimate goal body fat percentage of 18% Current body fat: not sure probably 23-26%
